THAT GUY

Monday, June 27, 2011, 4:48 AM | back to the top.

You know anon it would be a whole lot easier to forgive you if I knew exactly who you are. I mean my first instinct is to think it's "you" but my brain assures me it can't be.

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PROM!

Saturday, June 25, 2011, 6:41 PM | back to the top.

So yes of course this will be a post about Prom. Which I've got to say was just amazing! Everything came together so well, with the band and everything. I think it is safe to say the night was a definite success. This is kinda really long so sorry about that.

I'll start off with just putting into perspective just how amazing of a night that was. Because I reckon it was at least at par or if not greater than seeing Muse live. NOW THAT IS A VERY BOLD STATEMENT COMING FROM ME! You all know how much it meant to me to see Muse live. But prom I've got to say was just something else, I had so much fun.

So I guess I'll start off with a run through of the events during the evening. Well I showed up to Shazz's place around 2.30-ish I think. We basically went over all our stuff, making sure we had everything we needed. We just jammed for 30 mins until we had to suit up. And I've got to say I looked pretty decent for once in a suit. So yeah we then loaded up the car and drove to Contessa Receptions.

We got to Contessa about 4.30pm. We were 30 mins early for our sound check, but we unloaded the stuff and walked inside. The roadies were there and seemed pretty pissed off. I really don't like them, kinda treated us like amateurs. Anyways we waited for about 40 minutes until the rest of the band got there for sound check. Everything seemed pretty fine, no major issues with the songs we ran through. Which really amazed me, I mean the band was told on MONDAY that we were playing. So with one day of planning and 4 practices which weren't ideal either, we managed to get an Intro and 2 songs together.

So the set was:

Intro/Can't Stop - Red Hot Chili Peppers live in Hyde Park

Are you gonna be my girl - Jet

Slow Dancing in a burning room - John Mayer.

Once we had the sound check we chilled a bit. Walked over to 7/11 next to Contessa because Shazz wanted to buy some water. We probably looked so weird walking over fully suited up. And Andrew Craig looked hilarious wearing sunnies at night with a suit on.

Then the night "officially began", we didn't really get checked at all for our tickets which meant we wasted $60. But yeah it was 7pm and no one had really shown up in numbers yet. It started crowding up a bit and the band decided to get some photos taken.

Aleks then arrived with an amazing dress! In fact all the girls dressed up really well. I really couldn't recognize half the people there. But the nerves started building up for the performance. So eventually I decided to go and dance a bit to loosen up, which I did with Aleks and the guys. So the first hour wasn't too bad and we rounded up the band to go chat in the "Curtain room?".

Usually band pump up was in order and walked on stage feeling pretty good.

So Eddy started off the Intro and we all came in as planned. There were a few minor things that went a bit weird, I don't think anyone really noticed them. I mean we really couldn't hear ourselves, we sounded so shit from where I was standing, but people at the back said it sounded amazing so I hope it was. And then I came to the song which was pretty much the most stressing on me. Which was Are you gonna be my girl. Bass standalone solos nerve me, I just kept thinking don't screw up and have fun with it. And that's what I did. Just played the parts through and got the crowd pumping. Loved the fact that the crowd sang along really well which really just broke away and nerves from that point. And slow dancing was just a really chill song for us. Eddy, Matt and Shazz pulled off some amazing solos. I dunno if everyone could hear them or not but it went really well.

So I guess after the band played was when I really loosened up. I had one of those fuck it I'm just gonna have fun moments. And I really have no regrets about the whole night now. I'm glad I danced and just had fun. That's what it was really all about. Shazz really went wild and I think it rubbed off on me. Danced with so many randoms I would never expect to dance with haha. Switched groups around heaps. Then some how managed myself into the asian girl circle with Arjun haha. Then of course someone had to push me in, so I just dragged Arjun in with me. LOL I probably looked like such an idiot. Then Shazz jumps in too haha. It was amazingly fun. I know the photos are going to be really bad. Incase you all haven't realized I can't smile on impulse. Like I tried about 5 times to get a pic with Sherri which just failed because I can't smile.

But yeah the dancing was awesome, had so much fun. Even somehow got a slow dance in with Aleks. Campbell's crew played really well. When they finished the DJ started playing that "90's cheesy dance music??". I don' really know how to define it, but it was like Grease Lightning and Jitterbug. Had a dance with Junie and Teresa which was fun. I really had no idea what I was doing but oh well. The night ended off really well with Black Eyed Peas and Usher. I think this was definitely one of the best night I've ever had so far.

Now for a sort of reflection I suppose. But you know ever since moving to this school stuff hasn't really gone my way. And I think prom was something I really needed. Letting all your problems just drift away for a really good night was something I needed. And you know I've really decided that you know what, I'm going to try and be more positive now I guess. I think in my post -prom think sesh last night I realized I really shouldn't hold so many grudges against people. Even those people who've hurt me the most. Maybe it's about time I try fixing friendships instead of letting them just fall apart. I think I've forgiven most people at this stage, at least to an extent. I don't even have any reasons to do so, but I feel like I should.

So yeah from this point on I'm going to try and be a better me.

Labels: prom, sorry for any typos

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Tuesday, June 21, 2011, 4:27 AM | back to the top.

---- : Hey

me: Hey

---- : I'm going to be a bitch to you, but it's okay coz I'm your friend.

me: Ah no it isn't, but I think I just have to put up with it anyway right.

---- : Yerp :)

me: Alright then... :/

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Sunday, June 19, 2011, 2:38 AM | back to the top.

A stupid quote

Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is always from the noblest motives.
- Oscar Wilde

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Saturday, June 18, 2011, 3:07 AM | back to the top.

The only two rappers I actually listen to are Kanye West and Eminem. Why? Because their music has meaning, strong meaning.

Labels: fun fact

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Friday, June 17, 2011, 7:34 PM | back to the top.

A quote you disagree with

"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me"

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Thursday, June 16, 2011, 7:08 PM | back to the top.

It's kinda weird, but I still think about you. You have no idea how much I don't want to anymore. But the littlest things just bring it all back. I was so stupid back then, to believe that I ever really had a chance. I mean it's all so clear now, but I still regret everything, and how it ended. I tend to have a lot of regrets these days, and I think it's that stage were we all do.

I really hate how easily you just come back into my head. I could spend days without any thought of you, but then just something has to remind me. Always that song, or anything that's related to you. Your name on facebook just keeps popping up everywhere. Of course facebook has to suggest to me to "friend" you again. Could we ever really be friends again? Because I somehow doubt we ever could. Half of me just says to talk to you again and go back. Yet the other half talks reason into me telling me not to. I guess that other half is winning at this stage. I hope we can be friends again, because honestly I valued my friendship with you so much. But whenever I seriously think about it I change my mind. I don't really think I ever was as important to you as you were to me, I just have to accept that. You can screw over as many people as you want, because I don't think it will ever be possible to forgive you. And hopefully in time you realise what you do, and if you don't, I hope you have a horrible life.

You were my biggest mistake. I can never change that. But what I realise now is that you can never take anyone at face value. As obvious as that sounds. I'm going to start choosing my friends a bit more importantly. I need to get rid of all those people who just complicate things for me, because leading into year 12 I really just don't need that anymore. I've got to keep the people I need close and all others distanced. No complications then, and I can get on with life and school.

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, 7:00 PM | back to the top.

A short quote

"What we think, we become."
- Buddha

A quote from a song

"Wash me away

Clean your body of me
Erase all the memories
They will only bring us pain
And I've seen, all I'll ever need"

- Citizen Erased - Muse

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Wednesday, June 15, 2011, 1:30 AM | back to the top.

A quote that makes you laugh

I think this speaks for itself.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2011, 2:54 AM | back to the top.

Sorry but I'm going to have to bypass a quote from my favorite book as I don't have any copies, I haven't read the book in ages, I'm also not sure of exactly which book it should be and it is impossible to find any on the internet.

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Monday, June 13, 2011, 3:43 AM | back to the top.

RANDOM OBSERVATION!

Girls on msn convos have the weirdest way of getting themselves out of a convo. You know that point where like the convo is just dies, or is like close to dying. No one talks unless the other one does right? I know you all know what I'm talking about. Well when I say something like mhmm or something really general, they just put a :) and always just end off the convo. Turning it back on me to say something.

lol yerp that was pretty random.

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, 1:47 AM | back to the top.

WENT TO AN ALL YOU CAN EAT BUFFET TODAY OMG!

It was fucking amazing. Foodstar in Frankston is just amazing cheap. It's like 15 bucks for entry, then everything else is free except drinks. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I ATE! So much free delicious food. When we got there I just immediately stuffed everything I could. Which actually probably wasn't a good idea. As I was dead within 15 minutes and everyone else kept on eating for another 10 minutes. Was definitely worth it though.

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, 1:25 AM | back to the top.

A quote from your favorite writer

So this started off as a good thing right, that being looking for a quote from my favourite author. Brian Jacques was the author of the "Redwall" book series which was basically my child hood. So when I started googling I found out he had passed away in February this year D: So rest in peace, your writing inspired me. So here's two quotes I found worth posting.

"Don't be ashamed to weep; 'tis right to grieve. Tears are only water, and flowers, trees, and fruit cannot grow without water. But there must be sunlight also. A wounded heart will heal in time, and when it does, the memory and love of our lost ones is sealed inside to comfort us."

"I suppose there's a child inside me who wants to get out, ... A little baldy child with a beard. Ha!"

- Brian Jacques

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Arnold Schwarzenegger LMFAO

Sunday, June 12, 2011, 4:32 AM | back to the top.

Okay so I came across these videos last year of some Arnold Schwarzenegger quotes. It was all the entertainment the boys needed for like a month. Any excuse we had to use a quote we did. Anyways I was getting bored so I thought I'd re-watch them and discovered just how hilarious this man is. His really early acting in Hercules was just so bad. But these quotes are freaking amazing. If you've seen the movies mentioned before it'll make it so much better. But even if you haven't you HAVE TO watch these videos. It got me cracking up every single time I watch it.

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, 3:37 AM | back to the top.

A quote that describes you

"My formula for living is quite simple. I get up in the morning and I go to bed at night. In between, I occupy myself as best I can."
Cary Grant

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Liven up this blog?

, 3:35 AM | back to the top.

So I thought I'd give one of those challenge things ago. This blog gets boring at times so yeah.

15 DAY QUOTE CHALLENGE

A quote that describes you
A quote from your favorite writer
A quote from your favorite book
A quote that makes you laugh
A short quote
A quote from a song
A quote you disagree with
A stupid quote
A quote from someone you know personally
A well-known quote
A quote about love
A quote about friendship
A quote about cats
A quote about something you love
Your favorite quote

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Saturday, June 11, 2011, 6:37 AM | back to the top.

Sometimes I really can't comprehend what to do in some situations. You know those moments where you are stuck between two decisions? Well I'm pretty much there.

Kinda very weird actually in a way. You know how most people say they are torn between what their brain says is right and what their instincts tells them they should do. Seems to me like my brain is telling me to do two different things.

I think I just have to make a decision and stick with it, then live with the consequences.

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, 4:51 AM | back to the top.

I certainly hope you aren't getting the wrong idea from our friendship. Because you are getting really weird recently.

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Friday, June 10, 2011, 3:27 AM | back to the top.

NOTE: When I tell you never to bring her up, I mean never bring her up again.... ever. Because it was probably for a good reason I tell you not to. I don't really like being reminded of how someone destroyed me okay. I'm cool to talk about your relationship issues, but never bring mine into it. Thanks.

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long weekend project

, 1:08 AM | back to the top.

So I've got a 5 day weekend I thought I'd try to use constructively, sort of.

I spent the afternoon recording a backing I'm going to use tomorrow to record

some solos over the top. Possibly record some drums over it too.

There's more info on my tumblr here.

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Thursday, June 9, 2011, 6:15 AM | back to the top.

I HATE FUCKING SEEING YOUR NAME EVERYWHERE. FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE PLEASE.

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dubstep?

, 5:58 AM | back to the top.

So you all know basically what sort of music I listen to right? Not really anything "Mainstream", but I thought I'd surprise you with a recent musical discovery of mine. And that is DUBSTEP.

I was properly introduced to it by a friend of mine, (those who follow his blog would probably know who he is). But yeah at first I was like yeah it's okay. Then another friend of mine showed me this today, AND I WAS HOOKED. So I admit I never really liked "Electronic" stuff. But I admit this Dubstep stuff is pretty raw, and just blew my mind in some parts. So yeah here is a cover of Deftones - Prince.

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Wednesday, June 8, 2011, 3:44 AM | back to the top.

So here's a quote from a friend's blog. I don't think I'll source it unless she really wants me to? lol

i've never thought about things this much so why now?

WHY?

he's everywhere, every minute.

i bet i don't even cross his mind once.

telling someone was a big mistake. i should've kept it to my self.

i would've gotten over the tiny crush eventually.

i've gotten all these stupid hopes up and picture all the scenarios that won't ever happen.

i don't even know why i do this to myself.

i don't even look nice, especially beside him.

and i really should've done something, like going to the station earlier so wouldn't bump into him.

i don't get a decent night's sleep nowadays, especially with stress from exams.

my thoughts always, SOMEHOW, lead back to him.

and it's annoying the heck out of me, because i can't seem to control them.

you're so close to the ideal type.

i need to get over this quickly.

and i'm thinking about approaching you, so you can be weirded out and then think that i'm some freak, like someone you know, and then reject me, break my heart. anything to put me out of the misery of liking you.

GO GET A GIRLFRIEND OR SOMETHING ALREADY.

i haven't experienced this in either a loong time or i've never experienced this

You know I can really relate to some parts of this. Of course switching the gender's around. It really pisses me off that it happens. Like it's this weird feeling that you like this person, but you don't want to? It plays with your head so much, and IT WILL JUST NOT GO AWAY! You try to get your mind off things but somehow it always leads back to them right? Especially during exams at that. A good quarter of my english exam was spent thinking about what happened, just because she happened to be right in my line of vision.

You know when I think about it, it is kind of funny. I mean it's so weird that the person you are trying to avoid just happens to be everywhere you are. In the end I think I let that crush just fall to far in. But what is done is done.

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Sunday, June 5, 2011, 8:16 PM | back to the top.

So over the last week I've only listened to ONE SONG! No joke I've just been listening to this one song on repeat constantly. It's just so brilliant, I've fallen in love with the Foo Fighters now. One of the best Rock bands in existence at the moment. Anyway here's the song. Just a note too, the band always do comedic video clips. They do it as a joke towards how modern day music videos are made, and how over dramatic they can be at time.

Foo Fighters - Walk

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, 4:09 AM | back to the top.

I either come out of this exam period a better person or a worse person.

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Saturday, June 4, 2011, 6:19 AM | back to the top.

I honestly can't imagine being stuck in this slump that I'm in any longer. It really is under-bearable. You try to fix things up and then they fail. So what do you do? People insist on just keeping on trying, like things will get better. Trust me when I say I've tried. But that doesn't necessarily guarantee anything. I try, I really do, but I just don't get results and then I'm back to where I began. In a slump. So what you expect me to just repeat the process over and over again. I'm sorry I don't really think I can do that anymore. And all in all I just keep pushing myself away from people and loosing them. But what the fuck do I do. I don't want to loose anymore people from my life, yet alone loosing myself. Help.

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, 1:01 AM | back to the top.

Day so far..

Well I went to English tutor this morning and figured out what article to write for the analysis part of the English Exam. That shouldn't be too bad. I told myself that when I got home I'd work on it. But somehow I spent the next 4-5 hours doing absolutely nothing. Then at 3, for lack of a better option, I decided to go to bed and sleep off the bad mood I was in. The initial intent was to sleep for about an hour max. But I ended up sleeping till 6. So as I staggered out of my room I then realised that some people had come over. Keep in mind my sleep hair is EXTREMELY BAD. Imagine my normal hair (which is pretty bad as it is) times 20. So here I am now reflecting on a wasted day.. I think I might try at least do some work on the physics cheat sheet... Hopefully tomorrow might be more productive.

P.S. My absolute favourite drink now has to be cappuccinos. I'm thoroughly addicted to them.

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Thursday, June 2, 2011, 9:40 PM | back to the top.

I'll probably be blogging a bit more now on here considering I'm off my tumblr for the moment.

Anyways I'm in Geography at the moment just nodding off so I thought I'd blog. So I didn't finish the Methods sac.. yay. I just wanted to get it over and done with and leave. I didn't even bother getting the last sac mark, until Farrel at lunch told me I should. So I'm currently dreading getting the mark afterschool. I'll probably finish off this post afterschool so I shall update then on my mark. Anyway yeah I did really shit on the sac today, and for some reason I've lost motivation to actually bother and improve. I'm just too mentally weak, and you are probably thinking, "Damien just start studying already", "Stop complaining and start working". And yes I know I know I should. I need to start bothering already...

School is just so draining for me these days. Why bother going. You go to school, do work you don't want to do, see people you don't want to see, then go home and do more work you don't want to do. Why bother with the system. I really want to just drop out and do a trade or something. I would be perfectly fine just being a mechanic. I may have low expectations of life, but why have such high ones just to get dissapointed. Seems pointless really when you think about it. You live you die, simple as that. Why make such a big deal on being rich and "happy". It is just fake bought happiness. Personally as I've already told some people, I would be perfectly happy spending my life working on cars and fixing them. That's my idea of a happy life. But of course I'm stuck with this option now.

You know I think I might take a new direction at social interactions. Instead of just hiding behind something and not really, I guess doing anything about how some people act to me. I think I'll just blatantly tell them. If you are being a bitch to me, I'll be a bitch to you. You hate me, I hate you. Simple right? I guess it'll be easier to vent anger instead of building it up. So no apologies to people I'm mean to now, if you deserve it you'll get it.

OKAY YEAH I'M HOME NOW! If you aren't following, those previous paragraphs were randomly written at different times during last period. But I'm home now so I'll write something proper.
Btw, I got 22/32 for the previous Methods sac. Farrel insisted it was good because I actually pasted, but there is a long way to go.

So yeah I've been thinking a lot about friendships recently. And yeah I know I think too much, get over it. But like what can you use to define your friendship with someone? I find it really hard to define my social relationships for some reason. I mean yeah there are the obvious sub-categories of acquaintance, friend, best-friend. But don't you think that this is just too vague? I mean let me get into chemistry talk to explain this. You can consider classifying social relationships in a similar way to orbitals in an atom. So the higher energy orbitals are where your closer friends are, and lower energy orbitals are where your acquaintances are. BUT the electrons (your friends) can switch orbitals, and thus release energy in the form of light (or in context to this a fight). But there are not just those defined orbital shells, but there are many sub-shells as well. See what I need at the moment is one of those spectroscopes. For chemistry I know all the wavelengths and how to classify them. But for relationships I don't, I NEED TO KNOW PEOPLE'S WAVELENGTHS! So yeah I think you all understand what I'm saying now, so I'll stop with the chemistry comparison. You may ask why I want to 'define' my friendships with people. The answer is pretty simple, so I know what I'm getting and what I'm in for. If I feel like you are my closest friend, then realize I'm just secondary to you, I will be effected you know. Hence I need something definite.

Too many problems going on in my life. I really need some stability right now. I think I work the best in a stable environment.

Example of a stable environment - A bunch of close friends I can trust, parents who care and allow me to be my own person, a school which I can be confident at about my academic standards.

Example of a non stable environment - My life at the moment (No I'm not telling you any more).

#There are probably quite a few typos in here sorry.

Labels: LIFE

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