THAT GUY

Saturday, September 25, 2010, 9:40 PM | back to the top.

Made new blog to stop stalkers.
Did a lot of coding stuff as you can see.
It was my first time coding and there may be some bugs,
just let me know if something is a bit bugged.

Thanks

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, 9:37 PM | back to the top.

Moved blog to new url. So I can stop all those stalkers.

Those who want link can just ask me for it.

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Thursday, September 23, 2010, 10:31 PM | back to the top.

So I'm sick. Stuck here at home with nothing to do.

So what do I do.. I blog.

First off haven't done those letters for a few days because of being sick. So I really do ceebs going back and doing them again. SO I'll just continue on from whatever day I am on later.

But yer I think I've caught that bug going around recently. High fever,throat infection, nose is being a bitch. I'm also very positively convinced that over the last few days I've broken some sort of world record in relation to sleeping.

But yer this is just a post to say probably won't blog for a while, in the near future at least. Over my intense sleeping sesh's I've decided to stop blogging for a while. I mean my blog doesn't really mean anything so I'll take a break. I'll just release all my pessimistic thoughts on someone else. So my friends better be prepared :P

So catcha when I can be ceebs again.

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Tuesday, September 21, 2010, 6:06 AM | back to the top.

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, 2:53 AM | back to the top.

FUCK YOU PARENTS!

Okay I've held this shit in too long. But I fucking hate you.
My entire life does not fucking revolve around VCE AND FUCKING STUDYING!!
I WANT TO HAVE A LIFE!!
LETTING ME OUT ON THE HOLIDAYS ONLY FUCKING 2 TIMES IS NOT BEING FUCKING GENEROUS!!

FUCKKK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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, 1:08 AM | back to the top.

So today I came to a realisation. Nothing you ever want to happen to you will. No matter how badly you think things through in your head. No matter how badly you think things will happen. They just don't, in my experience anyway. Things just don't happen.

Now you can conclude what "things" are in your own way. Because what we all wish for is all different.

Yes, I also accept the fact that I'm probably just thinking pessimistically as I do, and yes I know I know, I think too much as many of you have told me. But thinking is the only way I personally can distance myself from reality. Thinking and music is my escape from the world.

Now back to what I was saying..
Essentially I'm saying life is a bitch, to many many people. Now we can play the blame game as much as we want. We can blame society, parents, other people, school, whatever you name it. But in the end what is really bringing us down?

You know what I think it is, ourselves.

The only thing standing in our own way is ourself. The cruel reality of this is in most cases that you just can't change yourself. I mean yes I know many can beg to differ. But I don't think you can. Nothing you do can truly change who you are, and how you act, and how others will see you. Cruel reality.

So what do you do? You can try as many have, as I have. You can try to change yourself as a person, you can try to make things different. To change circumstances, change what you have done, to effect what you will do.

But you can't... so what do you do?
What do you do when it all falls apart?
What do you do when you loose all hope?
What do you do when you realise how stupid you have been?
What do you do when you loose that person?
What do you do when you see all your mistakes?
What do you do when you feel that pain?

What?

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Day 9 and Day 10

Monday, September 20, 2010, 6:08 PM | back to the top.

Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet

This would definitely have to be Michael "Flea" Balzary from The Red Hot Chili Peppers.
He was my inspiration to play the bass and is my idol. I mean the things he can do with a bass is just amazing. I would give a leg just to meet you man seriously. Your playing style has influenced me so much, just would like to say thank you for showing me the marvels of the bass.

Day 10 - Some you don't talk to as much as you would like to
DEFINITELY WOULD BE SIMON!!! I don't even know if you read this but yer man, your were essentially like a brother to me last. But yer moving schools and all has restricted how much we can talk. Especially with my parents and all. We should catch up sometime soon.

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Sunday, September 19, 2010, 5:38 AM | back to the top.

Once again my boredom has brought me to blogging.

So

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Day 7 and Day 8

Saturday, September 18, 2010, 7:10 PM | back to the top.

Day 7 - Your ex ____ and Day 8 - Your Favourite Internet Friend

Sorry ceebs posting day 7 yesterday so I'll do it today.
Well to my ex crush I guess in this case. No hard feelings. Although there is a certain individual who I completely strongly dislike. You know who you are.

Day 8. Well this would definitely have to be Josh. You don't read my blog but I love our convos on music. Metal will live on!!! You were the one who first introduced me to Slipknot. And well your awesome guy, probably the one who started me listening to metal and stuff. So thank you.

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, 2:08 AM | back to the top.

Fuck this, like literally fuck this. I don’t give a fuck anymore. I’m not fighting it.
This term I’ve gone through a lot, hell this whole year I’ve been through a lot. I’ve ended up straying onto a one way path of which I can’t get off. And every single day I feel myself losing more and more of myself. I can feel myself slowly drifting away. And the worst part is that I just can’t do anything at all to fix it. To get my life back. So I’m not going to bother anymore. Just let it fall apart. Go ahead take your best shot, because I’m not fighting. I cbf fighting society and life anymore. So go ahead tear me apart. I want you to. Because I don’t have anything to protect anymore. It’s all just falling apart anyway. I’m not bothering with it.

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Also don’t you hate people who keep doing something, especially when you know what they are doing, and they know that you know. But hey they just keep doing it. You think you know someone but you don’t. So fine fuck you then, I see how it is, I’ll just piss off then.

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So in the end what I’m trying to say is take your best shot. Coz I aint fighting

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Day 6 - A Stranger

Friday, September 17, 2010, 3:48 AM | back to the top.

Day 6 - A Stranger

Well "Stranger" hello.
Don't really know what to do with this one. I mean I see strangers everyday on a regularly basis. On my train and bus there are always the same people. Going on with their lives day after day. Nothing changes, just always a repeated cycle.. such is life.

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Today was an okay day. Everything was shit except IMAX HUBBLE 3D and walking around the museum randomly. I found plenty of weird insects that creep'd me out. Like spiders the size of my freaking hand!
But yer today was a pretty mehh day.

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Finally sorta cleared up my mind today regarding whether or not to bother with girls or not any more. Decided that it just isn't worth the heartache in high school. I mean in the end in high school it is just pointless. Meaningless dare I say.
So yer not going to bother. Girls are just not worth it, they screw with your mind wayy too much.

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Now off to holidays.. homework a plenty.. tons of parties I won't be allowed to attend.. and hours on WoW now cozzz FREAKING HAFIZ GOT ME ADDICTED AGAIN!!
But he is right.. for some weird reason WoW does bring a distraction from the outside world which is much needed at the moment.

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Day 5 - Your Dreams

Thursday, September 16, 2010, 3:50 AM | back to the top.

Day 5 - Your Dreams

Well dreams. You always seem that one step away. I don't really know what I'm saying, just like I feel whenever I catch up to you, I then fall behind, and you seem more and more impossible.
I guess we all have that "ideal life" sorted out in our heads. Go to Uni, Get a good job, get a decent salary, find that special person, and live happily ever after.
T ome you just seem to be pulling away from reality.
So please become just a little bit more easier.

extension of my 100 things to do before I die..

11. Live in Japan for a few years
12. Take a trip around the world
13. Drive a Formula 1 car
14. Get a Drivers Racing License
15. Own a 1969 Ford Mustang
16. Book out a race track for a day and just go nuts
17. Sleep under the stars with no tent
18. Drive on the Autobahn
19. See proper Japanese Touge Drifing
20. Drive the Gumball Rally..

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Day 4 - Your sibling

Wednesday, September 15, 2010, 1:33 AM | back to the top.

Day 4 - Your Sibling

Grow the fuck up...
That is all

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Today I have decided that it is time to pull my socks up. Starting next term ima not gonna use fb at all. Way too distracting and I'm starting to fall behind in so many subjects. So shall be deactivating after these holidayss...

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Only really tomorrow left. About fucking time. I need a break, a lot of people do. This term has just been so full on, too many things have happened.. needa get away from it all. Hopefully should be aight after the holidays.
That is if I can actually finish all the freaking holiday homework we get from "John Monash Science School" =="
I mean seriously sometimes I feel like stabbing the freaking teachers. They give us all this full on homework all AT THE SAME TIME. *insert rage here*
But s'all good. Will try to recuperate these holidays, listen to plenty of music, and finish that god damn fail of a song I am writing, (on top of audrey's one). I sense a ton of guitar and bass playing coming up these holdays....

laterz

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Day 3 - Your parents

Tuesday, September 14, 2010, 12:28 AM | back to the top.

Day 3 - Your parents

Well you are typical curry parents. What can I say. You can annoy me, but then again whose parents don't. Glad I have you though. You have been good to me in my mood swings.. mostly :P

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scary shit

Monday, September 13, 2010, 5:45 AM | back to the top.

9/11

stolen from my good friend tyson jones

New York City has 11 letters
Afghanistan has 11 letters.
Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.
George W Bush has 11 letters.
New York is the 11th state.
... The first plane crashing against the TwinTowers was flight number 11.
Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11
Flight 77 which also hit TwinTowers, was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5 = 11
The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11
The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911. 9 + 1 + 1 = 11.
The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the TwinTowers incident
The twin towers is shaped as an 11
The world Trade centre has 110 floors.
The terrorists were accused of flying from Iran. Irans regional code is 119 (9+1+1 = 11)

So we can see that the number 11 is very prominant....
What other events have occured on the 11th of September?
9/11/1792 - The Hope diamond is stolen
9/11/1906 - Ghandi begins the non violance protest in South Africa
9/11/1941 - Ground breaking ceremony at THE PENTAGON
9/11/1991 - NEW WORLD ORDER PROPOSED AT THE PENTAGON
9//11/2001 - "Terrorist attack" at THE PENTAGON!!
9/11/ 1994 - Cesna flies into the whitehouse

scary shit isn't it?
makes you think...
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, 4:42 AM | back to the top.

to get involved or stay out of it?
That is the question......

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, 12:52 AM | back to the top.

TITLES

Just realised my titles don't show up on my posts.. so needa put it in the message.
Last post was.
"Day 1 - Your Best Friend and Day 2 - Your Crush"

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Day 1 — Your Best Friend and Day 2 — Your Crush

, 12:28 AM | back to the top.

Okay firstly off Ima just say I'm not gonna mention any names. Just to get you guys guessing.

First off to by best friend.. you definitely know who you are.
Dude where do I start. We have been through so much in our lives together and I know your soo well. we are like the same entity. I really don't need to say much more as you and I probably both know all the hilarious stories we could put down here.
love you mann (non gay way... ;) )

Now to my crush..
What can I honestly say besides you are amazing. Unlike really any other girl I've known before. And whenever I talk to you, you quite literally make my day. I always wait for that moment in the day where I get to speak to you. Your amazing, beautiful, funny, cute, and you never fail to make me smile.
Just want you to know I really do appreciate you being there in my life. Please don't leave any time soon. And don't worry about me doing anything to break the peace if you will. I know it won't happen and I accept that. I do hope it is mutual, but I am almost certain it is not. I just don't want you to leave :)

Moving on today I have decided to write a list of 100 thing to do before I die..
I will eventually get them all in one list.. but here are my first feww..

1. See the Red Hot Chili Peppers live
2. Shake Michael "Flea" Balzary's hand
3. See Muse live in concert (will be completed in December :P)
4. Own a Ferrari
5. See the pyramids
6. Own a Musicman Stingray Bass (vintage from the 80's of course)
7. Busk in New York City
8. Earn a million dollars
9. Visit Palestine (I don't know why.. just think it would be a humbling experience)
10. Shoot a proper Assault Rifle.
....

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Day 1 - Your Best Friend

Sunday, September 12, 2010, 5:45 AM | back to the top.

Dude where the hell do I start. You and me are like one person essentially..
and well to be honest i ceebs doing this tonight.. so ima do it tomoz with tomoz's one.

hehe
laterzz

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thirty day challenge

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thir-tay day letter challange,

stole this from u paulinaa.. looks interesting xD ima try it from tooday.

* Day 1 — Your Best Friend
* Day 2 — Your Crush
* Day 3 — Your parents
* Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
* Day 5 — Your dreams
* Day 6 — A stranger
* Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
* Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
* Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
* Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
* Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
* Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
* Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
* Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
* Day 15 — The person you miss the most
* Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
* Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
* Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
* Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
* Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
* Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
* Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
* Day 23 — The last person you kissed
* Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
* Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
* Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
* Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
* Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
* Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
* Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

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, 4:06 AM | back to the top.

yes i know. another postt.. but I'm bored and ceebs with hw so leave me alone..

After a day of pretty goalless thinking I know what to do for the next few weeks. Just gotta see what happens now I guess. Then I can make up my mind.

Oh and for everyone who hasn't listened to the Red Hot Chili Peppers should do so. Spent the afternoon watching one of their live concerts, helped me realise just how much of a great band these guys are...

Okay this is the last post for the day.. xD

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, 2:23 AM | back to the top.

Another pointless post for another pointless dayy.

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the pepperss

, 12:21 AM | back to the top.

These guys are legendss

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stolenn

Saturday, September 11, 2010, 10:37 PM | back to the top.

You're waiting for a train, a train that will take you far away. You know where you hope this train will take you, but you can't be sure. But it doesn't matter - because we'll be together.

- inception

stolen from ashley ng

Such a good quote I can relate with.. Really should go watch inception ey..

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, 7:10 PM | back to the top.

WHAT THE FUCK
This shit is really fucked upp..
Wish it would just make sense for once..
I JUST DON'T KNOWWW

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, 6:05 PM | back to the top.

Something is very extremely wrong with me.
I mean wtf. It just embeds itself deeper and deeper into my mind..
into my heart..
WTF
I wish i could just push it away.
But it won't leave..
So what do I do?
I need a slap in the face atm.

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NEW LOOK

, 6:47 AM | back to the top.

Just like to majorly thank TERESA!
For getting this awesome template up and running.
I owe you a big time.

Also sorry ppl no comments with this template.
There is always Cbox though.

Hope you all enjoy new look..

and
THANK YOU TERESA!

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, 1:39 AM | back to the top.

We all search for something. But I think no one truly knows what it is they are searching for. It's an endless game of hide and seek. You search and search looking for the non existant but in your mind you think it exists. You hope it exists.

Most people stumble upon what they are searching for occasionally. Catch a glimpse of it. THen they find out it exists. Or so they think... They might even run after it mindlessly for a while before realising how wrong they were.. They try and try to get it.. but in the end it is lost again.

Then there are the lucky ones that find it, and keep it. Although in most cases it is lost again.

And finally there are those people who never find what they are looking for. THeir whole life is lived without ever finding that one thing.

Is this a good or bad thing? Do we really need to find this one thing.. Does it even actually exist?

Too many questions... I guess I think too much as you know. Why do I still bother?

Oh well.. maybe I'll just sit on the fence on this one.

What is it I'm talking about?
I'll let you guess..

one word
one syllable

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Friday, September 10, 2010, 7:04 PM | back to the top.

Something is wrong with me. Why do I bother with this?
What's the point?
I think way too much.
Like it'll happen.
I'm such an idiot... =="

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, 5:40 AM | back to the top.

Failing to see the point in bothering anymore...
Maybe just sit it out and wait?
Or actually bother trying to do something?
I think in time things will eventually make themselves clear..
So for now just wait it out.. see how things unveil..

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, 5:00 AM | back to the top.

Rufus Wainwright - Hallelujah

I heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth, the minor fall, the major lift, the baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelu----jah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof, you saw her bathing on the roof, her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to a kitchen chair, she broke your throne, she cut your hair, and from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelu----jah

Maybe I have been here before, I know this room; I have walked this floor, I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch, love is not a victory march, it's a cold and its a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelu----jah

There was a time you let me know whats really going on below, but now you never show it to me, do you? (and)
Remember when I moved in you; the holy dark was moving too, and every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelu----jah

Maybe there's a God above, and all I ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And its not a cry you can hear at night, its not somebody who's seen the light, its a cold and its a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelu--jah

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelu---u---jah

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Wednesday, September 8, 2010, 4:59 AM | back to the top.

ima now gonna official fail methods test and english essay because I think too fucking much about things...
I swear I would give a leg just to be able to live in peace for once in my life. Just shut off the outside world.. and all the troubles will go away..
well at least in theory.

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Tuesday, September 7, 2010, 4:42 AM | back to the top.

the door gets ever so wider. luring me as it becomes ever so closer, and ever so easier to walk through. but why don't i take it? is it fear for what is on the other side? or for fear of what i leave behind in my current room.

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, 1:25 AM | back to the top.

i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really thinks too much about things.........

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the bucket list

Monday, September 6, 2010, 3:19 AM | back to the top.

Today I watched the best film I have ever seen.. full stop..
The Bucket List
The story of two men from two different worlds. One a mechanic, and one a self made billionaire.
They are both diagnosed to have cancer and only given months to live. Hence their meeting in hospital. Which sparks a friendship and the two decide to create a "bucket list", a list containing all the things they want to do before they die.
The two go through many experiences that change both of themselves for the better.
I strongly recommend you go watch it. It is the most beautiful film I have ever seen. And I'd be lying if I said it didn't bring a tear to my eye. I can proudly admit that. This movie has genuinely changed me as a person.

"my belief is we live, we die, and the wheels on the bus go round and round"

This is a must see film.

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coffee shop

Sunday, September 5, 2010, 12:08 AM | back to the top.

Today I found an actual song that physically starts making my heart beat faster. Who needs a caffeine hit when you have this song

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Coffee Shop
Very ironic that the song title is coffee shop.

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Saturday, September 4, 2010, 3:46 AM | back to the top.

Another night, of me just sitting here, having a ton of homework to do, but no motivation to do it.
So I have found myself another excuse to blog.

I don't know what to do any more. I used to think I had my whole life figured out, but the honest truth is I don't. You keep thinking you get it and know what to do. But you don't..
I guess this is kind of obvious but I have no idea where I will find myself in 10 years time. Will I be some homeless bum on the street? Head of a large corporate company (i wish), or just still playing bass and getting big.
Will I find that someone? or just be alone?
So many questions I wish I had the answer to, but I will never have until that time comes.
The biggest being that of relationships, what to expect these days. You just don't know what will happen.
But well in my opinion I just won't bother trying. As I have said on many occasions. Shall join my other fellow mates in just not trying.
I'm not ruling out relationships all together at this stage, but rather in low gear.. for lack of a better saying.
Maybe things in that department will eventually work out.. or maybe not..

Well that was my pointless post to waste time.. i ceebs reaading over it so sorry for a fail post.

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Friday, September 3, 2010, 1:56 AM | back to the top.

It brings more bad than good.
So I shall not pursue it.
I mean what's the point.
It'll just end badly anyway..
So I'll sit on the sidelines.

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Thursday, September 2, 2010, 11:19 PM | back to the top.

Today has been one of those days..
Just sat at home doing nothing and listening to music.
In deep reflection on a lot of things.
Like you all know I think too much.
One thing is for sure though.
I need to change a few things....

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