THAT GUY

Wednesday, March 30, 2011, 3:29 AM | back to the top.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011, 11:50 PM | back to the top.

Okay a word of warning about this post. This is well and truly a rant I just need to get out of me. AND A LOT OF CAPS STARTING NOW.

OKAY TO MISS "I'M THE BEST FUCKING TEACHER IN THE WORLD AND I ALWAYS KNOW BEST".

WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE.
HOW THE FUCK DID YOU EVEN BECOME A TEACHER. Really? What the fuck is wrong with you.

Okay so I know I may not be the best english student around. BUT YOU HAVE TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME, at the 10 MINUTE LONG RANT you gave my dad and me. ABOUT HOW I'M "EXTREMELY DISRUPTIVE IN CLASS, AND NOT COMPLETELY THE WORK SATISFACTORILY".

Telling me to look at myself? And how I act in class. EXCUSE ME BITCH.!

Here are some things she said :

"Damien is an extremely disruptive student in class. What do you think the issue is Damien? Look at yourself in the class room and tell me what you think you are doing?
ME : "Uhmm my work?"
TEACHER : "NO that is not what you are doing."

TEACHER : "Your essay was completely beside the topic. To be honest this isn't even a persuasive or expository piece. What this is (in a sarcastic tone) 'A list of everything Damien thinks is correct, and what he says goes'. If you expect to get through year 11 like this you must be kidding. I'm sorry if you think an expository piece means you don't have to think about anything or plan, but it's not. It's not just about winging it and thinking it is easy so you'll get away with it".

TEACHER : "So maybe you shouldn't sit with your friends in class?"

ME (CLEARLY PISSED OFF AT THIS STAGE SO I CRACKED) : "I don't even talk in class! Is this because I just sit on a table of people you think I talk to. To be honest I don't even have that many friends in class I can talk to"

TEACHER: "Now you don't need to get all defensive".

BITCH ARE YOU FUCKING FOR REAL. REALLY? YOU ARE THE ONE SAYING ALL THIS SHIT ABOUT ME. WHAT DO I JUST SIT BACK AND TAKE ALL THIS?

TEACHER : "What you are doing is completely wrong, it is all beside what the whole point of this topic was".

BITCH FUCKING TEACH ME THE TOPIC THEN. INSTEAD OF EXPECTING THE WHOLE FUCKING CLASS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE SAYING.

By this stage you all know who this teacher is. I won't name her, but I swear if I see this teacher alone, I won't hesitate to end her. What fucking nerve, to think I'M the fucking one being disruptive in class. WTF I DON'T EVEN SAY SHIT. You know what the fucking worse apart about it is. It's how she smiles, and says EVERYTHING in a sarcastic tone when she is putting you down.

And yes all she does is put you down. She doesn't offer costructive criticism on your work, all the does is say "YOU DID THIS WRONG, WTF ARE YOU DOING?"

Bitch you have no idea how much I hate you right now. You just got on the bad side of me, and that is somewhere you don't wanna be. You want a fight, I'm bringing a fight. So you better fucking be ready. What a fucking bullshit year.

I swear the world has a problem with me. WILL YOU FUCKING PLEASE THROW SOMETHING MY WAY FOR ONCE. JUST A SCRAP OF HAPPINESS. PLEASE!

fml I hope i die....

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, 3:36 AM | back to the top.

Why can't I just let you go.
It's the only question on my mind.

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I really have no idea what this is.

Friday, March 25, 2011, 3:13 AM | back to the top.

So I haven't really posted anything for a while. School has been taking up too much of my time. I've noticed I have a lot of drafts I haven't really bothered posting. So I'll first start with shit atm, then post some older random shizz.
Have fun stalking. I apologise in advance for how stupid this is.

Yeah now I have officially given up. Like no joke anymore, I'm going to stop worrying about you. I'm going to stop trying and bothering. No longer will I make any sort of effort to get you to like me. I know it won't happen, most importantly you just wasted away too much of me. You have been too much of a tease, as I've been told so many times. Whenever I have tried in the past it has always ended the same way. I get screwed over in some way in the end. So I'll just leave you be, and stop myself from digging myself into a bigger hole. I'm moving on, not trying, not searching anymore. I'll let it come to me, hopefully. Iunno maybe in all this I'll find whatever I'm searching for.

So the last few weeks have been sooo shit for a lot of people. SAC's and tests and etc happening these days. I suppose everyone has been in a shit state. Or is that just me? I don't know.

Anyways, I might as well say how shit my SAC score was for methods. 4/14. :D:D:D
How fucking good is it? =="
I'm pissed about it yeah, and I swear fucking Mr Kermond better step up his game. Actually the whole school and teaching maths better step up. Because I'm going to talk to Mr Corkhill now. It has gotten to a point where if I keep going on like this, I'll end up failing the subject. Fucking VCE is awesome ain't it?

It's such a stupid system. Basically stress out thousands of student for 2 years to get them a 2 digit number (4 digit including the decimals?) to get into a Uni course. I was talking to a friend the other day who told me that in her country of origin, instead of this VCE like system, what they do is actually test the student to see if they can do the Uni course in question. Isn't that a much more effective method rather than telling student to get a number. I mean a student who gets a 90 something may get into his/her desired course. However they might not even be able to do the course and drop out. It is so stupid.

It always just comes to one single fucking fact in this world. Looks. Humans are visual creatures. We judge and act according to our primary sense, which is sight.
But you know what, I fucking hate it. Because no matter how much you love someone, no matter how much you would sacrifice to be with that person, if you are classified into the lower half of people in regards to looks like me, there is no fucking point. Happy endings don't exist.

I've noticed something about you today. You aren't always the same person, you change. You're dynamic. I suppose we all are. But especially you, you seem to be a different person everyday. I can never tell what's going through your head. And most of all I can't tell why I bother trying to understand you. I suppose you will always be a mystery to me.

So like I just want to say racism is probably one of man kinds worse attributes. Maybe it's just Australia, this so-called "Multi-cultural society" which is supposed to be a safe haven to immigrants. I've copped my fair share of racist remarks, and I'm fucking sick of it. We are all the same people. Why do people preference every other individual they see by their colour. Fuck you to those people! There is being funny and joking, and actually being a fucking racism. Don't discriminate because of colour, it is the lowest thing a person can do.

AIGHT JUST BEFORE I POST THIS. A quick WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM to that retarded motherfucker who won't grow up. :)

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Monday, March 7, 2011, 11:18 PM | back to the top.

Why the fuck am I waiting? Waiting for everything just to happen? It’s like I expect in one moment for everything just to magically work out for me.

So I get home and I’ve done 2 freaking methods questions. And I don’t even give a fuck. It’s not even funny how crap I’m doing at the moment. You know what I fucking am pissed off. You know as opposed to how I usually am.. ==”

I can’t deal with all this shit any more. Like I just need something to work out in my favour for once. Just something, something to actually motivate me for once. I don’t even care what, maybe somehow doing reasonable on this SAC. Maybe for my family to finally stop giving me shit.

JUST SOMETHING PLEASE FOR ONCE! Whatever divine being is out there, as much as you hate me, and as much as I dislike you. CAN YOU PLEASE just turn something out in my favour in the near future? You know so I don’t just give up on it all.
I know just sitting here waiting is probably the stupidest thing to do. But I’ve reached a point, where “I don’t give a fuck” or “I ceebs” tends to be every second sentence that comes out of my mouth. Those who see me on a daily basis know this to be true.

So pretty much what I’m saying is I’m waiting. To who or whatever is out there, just throw something my way for once? Please?

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whether or not - gabe bondoc

Saturday, March 5, 2011, 2:26 AM | back to the top.

I'm not nearly as poetic as I need to be

To express, explain, or demonstrate what you mean to me.

You're a golden ocean on a shore of bright, white sand.

I can feel your waves around me take me by the hand.

You're all in the sand.

And I'll wait till forever is through

Whether or not you love me, I'll be loving you.

I'll wait till forever is through

Whether or not you love me, I'll be loving you. I'll be loving you.

In a complicated world, you bring simplicity.

'Cause when everybody's talking, you're just listening.

I've dreamed a thousand dreams and still, nothing compares

To the feeling that you give while you're standing here.

I don't care if it's fair.

I'll wait till forever is through

Whether or not you love me, I'll be loving you.

And I'll wait till forever is through

Whether or not you love me, I'll be loving you. I'll be loving you.

Yeahhh

Another day, another dollar

Another day to find the answer

Oh, how long will I have her here in my arms?

Oh, I...

I'll wait (ait)

Hey 'ey

And I'll wait till forever is through

Whether or not you love me, I'll be loving you. Yeah.

I'll wait till forever is through

Whether or not you love me, I'll be loving you. I'll be loving you.

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, 2:04 AM | back to the top.

Sometimes I wonder I'm friends with some people. It's like a one sided friendship in most cases.

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Friday, March 4, 2011, 4:31 PM | back to the top.

Ima start of with a quote from a friend.

english is also being the gayest bitch ever.
i don't understand a single thing the teacher says about creating and presenting.. i mean wtf?
I JUST DON'T GET IT. I NEED A SIMPLE EXPLANATION AND STRAIGHTFORWARD INSTRUCTIONS WOMAN.
not a beat around the bush, lets do some artifact activities and try to get the gist of it.
i don't work that way. my brain doesn't work that way.
arghhhh!

This is exactly how I am feeling atm about the stupid teachers at my school. This is so called "science school" which is supposed to be so good. Well it fucking isn't, they try implementing all these new learning techniques and bullshit. IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK, JUST TEACH US NORMALLY. I don't want to be the guinea pig that ends up dying.

SOOO today I tried once again to do some methods homework and try to understand this shit. But I'm sorry I just don't, I try but these teachers don't teach us shit, I complain and they don't do crap. I'm just sitting here realising I'm gonna fuck up the SACs so much. Exam I think I'll be okay-ish, but only because I have Jack's tutoring, he seems to know what his talking about.. most of the time. So I have faith in him.

BUT YES, when the teacher did some fucking complicated shit on the board I had no idea about, and then said it'll be on the SAC. I kinda realised I have no hope left for methods.

So I put in what I think I'll get for my subjects in this online atar calculator.

So basically my only hope left for methods is how good the scaling is this year. Last year I would've scaled to 41... :/

So yeah once again I end this post with this.
FML :)

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Wednesday, March 2, 2011, 11:36 PM | back to the top.

#DISCLAIMER

ALRIGHT SO FIRST OFF I'M GETTING THIS ALL OUT OF MY SYSTEM NOW. SO IF ANYONE HAS A PROBLEM WITH THE SHIT I SAY YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK. IF YOU THINK I SHOULD HARDEN UP, AND THAT PEOPLE HAVE MORE WORSE LIVES THAN ME. THEN STOP FUCKING READING. IF YOU THINK OVERALL I COMPLAIN TOO MUCH AND I SHOULD GET THE FUCK OVER IT ALL. THEN FUCK YOU.

So for those who don't know we had a hardcore methods test recently. It wasn't a SAC or anything like that. Just a test the teacher talked up heaps, saying it'll be really hard and that the pass mark was 35 percent. The test was out of 40, so I'm thinking yeah it'll be hard and crap. I'll get like 15 or something on it.
Then the day finally arrived to get my result. People were all worried and shit etc etc, I'm sitting there like yeahh nws it'll be crap I know.
Then the teachers start going on about if you get under 10 then you must come to all this after school shit and get "extra help".
Now you and I both know where this is leading. And we both know the imfamous "need extra help" line is basically condemning us to a <35 in methods. Simple as that, as much as they say oh yeah study hard you'll be fine. If you can't handle it at the start of the year basically you'll struggle the most at the end.
So you're wondering what I got? I got a fucking 8. FUCKING 8/40. I didn't pass, and it was the lowest mark I have ever got. IN 3/4 MATH METHODS ASWELL!.
FUCKING BATHUSAN! The retarded prick who knows shit all did better than me, getting a 19!!
SO BASICALLY WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY IS FUCKK YOU!! TO JMSS AND THE STUPID RETARDED METHODS TEACHERS..
This might sound exaggerated but it's not, I assure you that. Their so called "teaching method" for the start of this year has been this.
**Hand out yellow sheet with chapters to do. Tells us to finish it by the end of the week.
**Hand out another yellow sheet with chapters to do. Tells us to finish it by the end of the week.
CAN YOU FUCKING TEACH ME WHAT I NEED TO KNOW TO DO THIS WORK RATHER THAN JUST TELLING ME TO DO IT. I DON'T THINK IT WORKS THAT WAY!
Then I confront the teacher about it. What does he say, oh this is just easy stuff you should be able to do, we'll have more instructional stuff when harder things come along.
We are fucking doing x^-5/9 shit. I don't think that's "easy". Nice way of brushing me off sir. I really recon you're a good teacher now.

And need I remind you this is just year 11. With ONE 3/4 SUBJECT ONLY. Next year I swear I'm going to fucking kill myself. This shit is ridicules.
And then I get onto every fucking other subject. Choosing to unload all major assessment tasks in one fortnight. So much for "promising to space out assessments between subjects this year". :/
Do they not understand we aren't machines. We have lives, parents and school need to realise this. Other shit happens to us besides just school. We have social lives, or what's left of them. We have other shit we need to deal with. The last thing I needed was a fucking 8 on a test ontop of all the other bullshit happening in my life atm. All the fucking relationships with people I need to either repair, or somehow keep stable. At some point real soon I'm just gonna say FUCK IT! Don't need any friends, you can all piss off and let me be.
I'll just drown here in work, and somehow live up to the impossible expectations of my parents. I'll just run away at some point and become a mechanic in some ratty suburb. What a demotivating day.

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