So you know what I said about the surgery being low risk... I take that back.
I just read the pamphlet about the operation and I'm shitting myself.....
Abnormal scarring, possible blood clotting, serious chest infections, nasal splint (some plastic thing up my nose for a week), front lower part of nose may drop down and require further surgery, a collection of pus may develop, LOTS OF PAIN IN GENERAL, possible lost of nerve feeling in upper mouth for a month, and of course possible heart attack. Now they say that this is all rare, but it has happened. Apparently it's 4 months to fully heal.....
So there I was, on my way home after school having a brilliant afternoon. Just imagine one of those Disney films where the princess is in the forest singing with all the animals. Well that was basically me.. on the train... without the animals. Point is I was in a good mood.
For those who don't catch the Pakenham/Cranbourne Line, the train tracks basically cuts in two after Dandenong and goes either to Pakenham or Cranbourne. Now I was on a CRANBOURNE train. Meaning it would go to Cranbourne after Dandenong. Metro decided that this wasn't the case for some reason.
The driver said the announcer at Dandenong station signaled the train onto the wrong tracks and that we are now going to Pakenham. Thanks Metro, thank you very much.
You know what for a company that is supposed to be fixing the transport system
you sure aren't doing a good job. Time and time again you fail to do the simplest thing. Seriously how hard is it to get a train on the right freaking line. Seriously step up your game.
Now for the "update" portion of this post.
A few days ago I went to some sinus specialist in Frankston. For those who don't know I have a condition with my sinuses (I can't remember the long complicated name). Basically the cartilage running down the middle of my nose is bent. Apparently it's pretty bad according to my doctor, she was genuinely shocked. But yeah that is the reason I'm always blowing my nose essentially, it's ruining my sinus system. Because of the bend itself too it's blocked out an entrance to my left sinus (you can see this on the image as the large pink patch to the side of the nose). Because of this blockage it hasn't been getting enough oxygen and is under developed. So hopefully in December sometime I'll be getting the "septum" cut and straightened and the entrance to the sinus increased.
It's not a huge risky operation but I'm still nervous. Never had a big operation before.
So I just decided to put on a muse song before because I was feeling a bit b
ored. And no joke I nearly teared up LOL. I layed off Muse for a while admittedly. I needed to give them a break just to regain my lust for them. And I can guarantee it's back. THEY ARE JUST SO GOOD!
Haters gonna hate!
I will always miss seeing them live, but I just can't wait till next time. YOU JUST TRY AND TELL ME THIS IS NOT EPIC.
Always so distant, but always right next to you. I mean think about it, everything that's ever happened to you is so far away right? You can't go back and change the past. It's just not possible. Things happen, but you'll never be able to effect the past in any way.
It's kind of comforting in a way though. Regrets are kind of pointless, as you cannot change anything. Of course you'll still have regrets, we all do. But it's comforting knowing that you can't really effect what course you would've taken given you made a different decision somewhere along the path. You can't change anything is basically what I'm saying.
However then there's the other side. The past is kind of like eternal torture. That's a dark thing to say I know but think about it. You'll always wonder in the back of your mind what would've/could've happened if you decided to take some other path somewhere along the line. Kind of contradicting to what I've already said but that's kind of how it works. Some things you let go, some things you hold onto.
Eg.
You had strawberry yesterday when you could've had banana. Then you realize during eating the strawberry that you allergic to it.
So in this case you regret it yeah, but you let it go. It's nothing really serious right. How about this..
You decide to fuck over VCE because you cannot be bothered doing the work.
Now this obviously you will hold onto right. It's a past decision that you really do regret quite a bit.
See you never really know for sure how something in the present will effect you until it is the past. One thing is for certain I really don't want any more regrets.
So yeah I probably should be doing some homework right now but I'm really not in the mood. So I think I'll blog, it's been a good few weeks I think.
FIRSTLY AWESOME NEW BLOG SONG PPL.
So it's Weezer pulling off a great cover of Viva la vida. I absolutely love this. It isn't a dramatic change from the original song, but the lead vocalist Rivers Cuomo's voice on these certain notes is just amazing. If you bother listening to it (which I highly recommend you do) you'll know the parts I'm talking about.
So school, far out school. Anyone else going through this phase that just doesn't seem like ending? You just spend hours sitting there telling yourself to do homework, but you just won't? I really have no one to blame but myself in the end. I complain and complain and never get anything done.
So basically my short term goals at the moment is try and get something decent in Methods. I'm thinking a raw in methods over 30 or 35 (yet to decide which number) will satisfy me. And then next year I'm pretty much going to live in my study (as in the room) and study. Anything over 90 and I'll be extremely happy. Anything over 95 I promise you I will break down and start crying of happiness.
Realistically these are my options (in terms of preference/actually getting the ATAR necessary) of possible UNI courses:
(1) Engineering (Mechanical) Monash University Clayton - 91-92
(4) Probs a Tafe if I really get this low, probably something in automotive.
(5) Fuck it I'm gonna do an Arts @ anywhere
I just need to get my act together soon. Probably going to be a hectic day tomorrow trying to get chemistry and methods done. Far out hope I get something decent done.
So many issues these days. Problems don't seem to go away as usual. But of course I'm just a depressed cunt complaining about life right? What to do what to do. I'm stuck in this weird place at the moment. I basically have two options, admit defeat and not bother fixing my friendships (although A LOT of them I just don't want anymore), or try fixing a friendship I don't think other parties want?
Le sigh. Friendships these days. At least I'm glad I held onto the friends I can count on.
So you know what I said about the surgery being low risk... I take that back.
I just read the pamphlet about the operation and I'm shitting myself.....
Abnormal scarring, possible blood clotting, serious chest infections, nasal splint (some plastic thing up my nose for a week), front lower part of nose may drop down and require further surgery, a collection of pus may develop, LOTS OF PAIN IN GENERAL, possible lost of nerve feeling in upper mouth for a month, and of course possible heart attack. Now they say that this is all rare, but it has happened. Apparently it's 4 months to fully heal.....
So there I was, on my way home after school having a brilliant afternoon. Just imagine one of those Disney films where the princess is in the forest singing with all the animals. Well that was basically me.. on the train... without the animals. Point is I was in a good mood.
For those who don't catch the Pakenham/Cranbourne Line, the train tracks basically cuts in two after Dandenong and goes either to Pakenham or Cranbourne. Now I was on a CRANBOURNE train. Meaning it would go to Cranbourne after Dandenong. Metro decided that this wasn't the case for some reason.
The driver said the announcer at Dandenong station signaled the train onto the wrong tracks and that we are now going to Pakenham. Thanks Metro, thank you very much.
You know what for a company that is supposed to be fixing the transport system
you sure aren't doing a good job. Time and time again you fail to do the simplest thing. Seriously how hard is it to get a train on the right freaking line. Seriously step up your game.
Now for the "update" portion of this post.
A few days ago I went to some sinus specialist in Frankston. For those who don't know I have a condition with my sinuses (I can't remember the long complicated name). Basically the cartilage running down the middle of my nose is bent. Apparently it's pretty bad according to my doctor, she was genuinely shocked. But yeah that is the reason I'm always blowing my nose essentially, it's ruining my sinus system. Because of the bend itself too it's blocked out an entrance to my left sinus (you can see this on the image as the large pink patch to the side of the nose). Because of this blockage it hasn't been getting enough oxygen and is under developed. So hopefully in December sometime I'll be getting the "septum" cut and straightened and the entrance to the sinus increased.
It's not a huge risky operation but I'm still nervous. Never had a big operation before.
So I just decided to put on a muse song before because I was feeling a bit b
ored. And no joke I nearly teared up LOL. I layed off Muse for a while admittedly. I needed to give them a break just to regain my lust for them. And I can guarantee it's back. THEY ARE JUST SO GOOD!
Haters gonna hate!
I will always miss seeing them live, but I just can't wait till next time. YOU JUST TRY AND TELL ME THIS IS NOT EPIC.
Always so distant, but always right next to you. I mean think about it, everything that's ever happened to you is so far away right? You can't go back and change the past. It's just not possible. Things happen, but you'll never be able to effect the past in any way.
It's kind of comforting in a way though. Regrets are kind of pointless, as you cannot change anything. Of course you'll still have regrets, we all do. But it's comforting knowing that you can't really effect what course you would've taken given you made a different decision somewhere along the path. You can't change anything is basically what I'm saying.
However then there's the other side. The past is kind of like eternal torture. That's a dark thing to say I know but think about it. You'll always wonder in the back of your mind what would've/could've happened if you decided to take some other path somewhere along the line. Kind of contradicting to what I've already said but that's kind of how it works. Some things you let go, some things you hold onto.
Eg.
You had strawberry yesterday when you could've had banana. Then you realize during eating the strawberry that you allergic to it.
So in this case you regret it yeah, but you let it go. It's nothing really serious right. How about this..
You decide to fuck over VCE because you cannot be bothered doing the work.
Now this obviously you will hold onto right. It's a past decision that you really do regret quite a bit.
See you never really know for sure how something in the present will effect you until it is the past. One thing is for certain I really don't want any more regrets.
So yeah I probably should be doing some homework right now but I'm really not in the mood. So I think I'll blog, it's been a good few weeks I think.
FIRSTLY AWESOME NEW BLOG SONG PPL.
So it's Weezer pulling off a great cover of Viva la vida. I absolutely love this. It isn't a dramatic change from the original song, but the lead vocalist Rivers Cuomo's voice on these certain notes is just amazing. If you bother listening to it (which I highly recommend you do) you'll know the parts I'm talking about.
So school, far out school. Anyone else going through this phase that just doesn't seem like ending? You just spend hours sitting there telling yourself to do homework, but you just won't? I really have no one to blame but myself in the end. I complain and complain and never get anything done.
So basically my short term goals at the moment is try and get something decent in Methods. I'm thinking a raw in methods over 30 or 35 (yet to decide which number) will satisfy me. And then next year I'm pretty much going to live in my study (as in the room) and study. Anything over 90 and I'll be extremely happy. Anything over 95 I promise you I will break down and start crying of happiness.
Realistically these are my options (in terms of preference/actually getting the ATAR necessary) of possible UNI courses:
(1) Engineering (Mechanical) Monash University Clayton - 91-92
(4) Probs a Tafe if I really get this low, probably something in automotive.
(5) Fuck it I'm gonna do an Arts @ anywhere
I just need to get my act together soon. Probably going to be a hectic day tomorrow trying to get chemistry and methods done. Far out hope I get something decent done.
So many issues these days. Problems don't seem to go away as usual. But of course I'm just a depressed cunt complaining about life right? What to do what to do. I'm stuck in this weird place at the moment. I basically have two options, admit defeat and not bother fixing my friendships (although A LOT of them I just don't want anymore), or try fixing a friendship I don't think other parties want?
Le sigh. Friendships these days. At least I'm glad I held onto the friends I can count on.
Name's Damien, music is the game. Don't know where I'd be without it.
Mucked around with some themes coz I was bored.
Here's my negative release on the world.
Fav Bands
Muse.. Red Hot Chili Peppers Anything that isn't bullshit pop
Wants
Musicman Stingray bass Ferrari 599 Maxda rx7 fortune by veilside
Dislikes>
most bullshit mainstream music annoying girls who like playing with guys most people
The name's Damien.
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Name's Damien, music is the game. Don't know where I'd be without it.