THAT GUY

meh

Saturday, October 30, 2010, 4:41 PM | back to the top.

So here is the deal. Over the course of this day. I'm going to slowly update this post randomly.

Do you ever wish you could run away from it all. I mean everything. All the shit and all the people. Your parents, school..
I wish it would just all go away.

I MEAN FUCKING HELL. MY PARENTS. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU. So little anecdote here. I went to the dentist the other day. And she ask do you have any problems with your teeth at the moment. I replied no. After leaving the dentist CUE A FUCKING 10 MINUTE RANT FROM MY DAD. "OH BUT YOU HAD BRACES BEFORE WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU TELL HER HUH?" "OPEN YOUR FUCKING MOUTH AND JUST TELL HER. WHY DIDN'T YOU."
WELL FUCKING SORRY DICKHEAD. BUT SHE ASKED IF I HAD ANY PROBLEMS "NOW". SO GET THE FUCK OVER IT OKAY. JUST BECAUSE I DIDNT TELL HER I HAD BRACES LAST YEAR DOESN'T MEAN IT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO FUCKING SPAZ AT ME FOR 10 MINUTES OVER SOMETHING SO STUPID.
I mean they are always telling me these days. "Why are you talking so loudly and yelling these days?" "Stop thinking your all top shit now" (P.s. they are saying all this in sinhalese btw ==")

Now in this case. what the fuck do I reply? MAYBE IM YELLING BECAUSE YOU KEEP SAYING BULLSHIT LIKE THIS TO ME ALL THE TIME. ALSO NEWS FLASH BUT IM NOT FUCKING 10 YEARS OLD ANY MORE. GET THE FUCK OVER IT OKAYY. WHY THE FUCK CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ANY MORE. I HAVE MY OWN LIFE OKAY!
FUCKING HELLL

THEN fuckkk more rage. At certain people. You know those people you think you know? Those who you think understand you. But in fact they are just fake. I wish I was able to see past all the bullshit in people these days. How fake everyone has now become. People put themselves out to be seen in one way. When inside they are something completely different. And when you try to put yourself in a position where you want to understand why they are doing this. Hiding behind some wall they have. They just push you away. Okay fair enough I understand, maybe you can't trust me okay. I'll back off. But that doesn't give you the right to then probe me trying to find something.

Okay that above paragraph most likely makes no sense whatsoever. Well my ragee is noww gone..

Stop This Train - John Mayer

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

(think I got 'em now)

I seriously can't believe next year is VCE. The start of a huge stage in our lives. I feel so intimidated by it. I mean it's such a big deal. Being in a school like this, and all the pressure placed among us by parents to get a good score. Gonna be hell..

Well there is my above random thoughts during the fail. pretty fail post hah.
cant be bothered reading over this now.

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