Monday, July 25, 2011, 6:48 PM | back to the top.
So I found this new group of guys called "Art vs Science". They are very different, sort of dance electronica. A lot of that stuff isn't really my thing but these guys are awesome. I watched them live on TV a few weeks ago and I was blown away at how similar if not better they are live than their studio stuff.The embed is "Art vs Science - Take a look at your face". Enjoy.
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Friday, July 22, 2011, 4:27 AM | back to the top.
Every body reaches a point where they can't take it any more. I've reached my point. I'm sorry this shit went down. But understand this it wasn't exactly easy on me. You have been one of the closest friends I've ever had. But I just can't take this shit anymore. I'm sorry. I don't know whether I can forgive you this time.¶ 4:27 AM
Tuesday, July 19, 2011, 1:22 AM | back to the top.
Okay so I'm going to warn you now, I'm really pissed off. I need to vent. So read at your own digression. So the last week has been really testing for me. Some pretty major big things have happened which really have come as a shock to me. I guess life loves pushing you off path suddenly. It happens, but it will always catch you off guard. As smooth as you think things are going for you, something is always going to be there to throw you off. It's how nature and life works right. It's all a big test.
Lots of people have different ways on interpreting these sorts of things. Some take it as a "sign from god" or something with huge underlying meaning. In some respects I wish I could believe this. In a way it is nice knowing that everything that happens has a meaning which is supposed to help you. But personally I just think shit happens. Simple as that. If life wants to fuck around with you, it will, and you can't fucking do anything about it. I mean what in the world can you do when your parents fight, someone dies, or there is a huge terrorist attack. You as an individual can only look on.
And for me that hurts. Quite a bit. I mean I won't fully go into detail and digest my current family issues. But it's definitely not something I thought would ever happen to me. Do you have any idea how impossible it is to live in a household now where no one talks to each other. There is always a constant deathly silence slowly cutting in. Words can hurt a lot, but silence is something you should be so much more scared off. I just don't know when or who will be the first to snap. Me from the insanity of it all, but either one of my parents at the current situation.
And on top of all this shit going on at home there is school. Oh glorious school. And I mean that in some respects. I can get away from one hell just to enter another. But school is definitely seemingly the better option at current. I don't know whether having to deal with all the people is quite worth it at times however.
The people, oh the people. So I got an anonymous tip on tumblr the other day. Usually I really hate these anons, but this one seemed to be on "my side". They kindly offered me a link to something they thought is something I "should definitely read". I"m just guessing at this stage that what I was linked to was in regards to me. Now it could not be, I would really like it if it wasn't. But the nature of the material strongly suggests to me that it is. So that's how I'm going to interpret this.
Now I can put up with some things okay. But when someone pushes me, and I mean really fucking pushes. I will push back. And to have the fucking nerve to say this shit indirectly to me really hurts. Now I mean really fucking hurts. Some people reading this will probably not wanna "join my side" but seriously what the fuck have people been telling you? Now I know you don't care, and I know they don't care. I haven't been going around to people at all complaining about it, or asking anyone to fucking side with me. All I wanted was you to fuck off and get the hell out of my life. Because you are a "heartless bitch" to quote you. Yes I do want you to die in a hole, but the last thing I want is to drag this shit on. That's the whole reason I ended it in the first place. You were the worse thing that has ever happened to me. Simple as that. What gives you the right to say that shit. Everything does not revolve around me, I'm very clear of that. And I really can't even convey how hurt I am right now. I really thought things couldn't really get any worse than they did. But obviously I'm wrong. Fuck you, I do hope you die in a whole, I hope you live a lonely life, I hope you are unloved, I hope all your friends will see you for the slut you are, and I hope the rest of your life will be a miserable wreck. Maybe then will I be able to get some sort of justification for what a "heartless bitch" you are.
And you know what I'm fucking done. Done with all this shit. These "friendships" that are somehow related to you. If your friends are so sick of me then fine. I'll never friend with them again. And while I'm at it I'll drop all that other loose baggage I've got at the moment. All these stupid mother fucking "friends". People who I trusted, people who have meant something to me. Understand this, for me to properly friend someone means I actually fucking value you okay. So screw this who needs friends right? They all in someway fuck you over.
I have literally halved the number of people I consider friends now, and I don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. I'm definitely thinking it's good right now. Why bother having stupid attachments to people to be considered sociably acceptable. I'm not counting on anyone anymore. Go live your plastic lives.
Labels: fml
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Monday, July 11, 2011, 1:03 AM | back to the top.
You know what, I really hate my parents. Like I mean it they piss me off so much. I don't know why I still expect them to be reasonable. I really should start just expecting the worse, but a little part of me says maybe, just maybe they could be nice.So yesterday when I asked them if I could go to the Foo Fighters concert they said yes. I was like awesome, sweet..yay! etc etc
Then today when I told them sales start Thursday they just plainly said no.
WTF I asked you yesterday! You said yes! Why the fuck is it no now. They told me the reason behind it was because of "lack of money".
BUT THIS IS THE PART THAT REALLY AGGREGATES ME.
They said YES to central australia. THEY WOULD RATHER PAY $1000 than $120.
What..the..fuck.
I even offered to get a job and work. BUT NO they won't allow me. Seriously wtf, I would pay for everything myself if you just let me get a job. And you keep complaining about how all I ever do is ask for money. HELLO YOU WON'T LET ME GET A JOB TO PAY FOR WHAT I WANT!!
So basically I'll never be able to see Foo Fighters live ever again. This is almost definitely their last tour/tour when they are still able to rock out properly (in other words won't be like 50 years old).
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These days - Foo Fighters
Thursday, July 7, 2011, 6:40 AM | back to the top.
One of these days the ground will drop out from beneath your feet One of these days your heart will stop and play its final beat
One of these days the clocks will stop and time won't mean a thing
One of these days their bombs will drop and silence everything
But it's alright
Yeah it's alright
I said it's alright
Easy for you to say
Your heart has never been broken
Your pride has never been stolen
Not yet not yet
One of these days
I bet your heart'll be broken
I bet your pride'll be stolen
I bet I bet I bet I bet
One of these days
One of these days
One of these days your eyes will close and pain will disappear
One of these days you will forget to hope and learn to fear
But it's alright
Yeah it's alright
I said it's alright
Easy for you to say
Your heart has never been broken
Your pride has never been stolen
Not yet not yet
One of these days
I bet your heart'll be broken
I bet your pride'll be stolen
I bet I bet I bet I bet
One of these days
One of these days
But it's alright
Yeah it's alright
I said it's alright
Yes it's alright
Don't say it's alright
Don't say it's alright
Don't say it's alright
One of these days your heart will stop and play its final beat
But it's alright
Easy for you to say
Your heart has never been broken
Your pride has never been stolen
Not yet not yet
One of these days
I bet your heart will be broken
I bet your pride will be stolen
I bet I bet I bet I bet
One of these days
One of these days
One of these days
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, 6:36 AM | back to the top.
I predict he either likes you or will start liking you. I also predict you don't like him. Leading to my final verdict that your friendship will fuck over.
Labels: i'm a damn psychic now
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Monday, July 4, 2011, 5:54 AM | back to the top.
Oh that reminds me anon who are you? No fucking joke I'm considering getting rid of this cbox all together. I've been assured by others it's not "her". So who are you? I wish the stupid account would let me log in and see your I.P.¶ 5:54 AM
, 5:51 AM | back to the top.
Wow I just realised how many qualities from people have rubbed off on me. Even her, I'm like slowly turning into what I despise. I hate that the pieces remain.¶ 5:51 AM
Saturday, July 2, 2011, 7:50 PM | back to the top.
A quote from someone you know personally- "If you are searching you aren't ready."
*I don't know if I agree with this though.*
A well-known quote
-"I'd rather be hated for who I am, thank loved for who I am not"
Kurt Cobain
A quote about love
- "When you are in love you can't sleep because reality is better than your dreams"
Dr Seuss
A quote about friendship
- "An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast
may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind"
Buddha
A quote about cats
Yeah I'm not gonna bother with this.
A quote about something you love
- "I was born with music inside me. Music was one of my parts. Like my ribs, my kidneys,
my liver, my heart. Like my blood. It was a force already within me when I arrived on
the scene. It was a necessity for me like food or water."
Ray Charles
Your favorite quote
- "We live, we die, and the wheels on the bus go round and round"
The bucketlist (movie)
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If you don't don't - Jimmy Eat World
Friday, July 1, 2011, 6:37 AM | back to the top.
What's wrong baby, don't they treat you like they should?Did you take 'em for it?
Every penny that you could?
We once walked out on the beach and once I almost touched your hand.
Oh how I dreamed to finally say such things then only to pretend.
Don't you know I'm thinkin', drivin' 405 past midnight.
You know I miss you.
Don't you know that I miss you?
Ninth and Ash on a Tuesday night.
I would write to you from a museum mile, toast to you:
your whisper, your smile.
Up the stairs at the Weatherford, a ghost each place I hide.
If you don't don't know, why would you say so?
Would you mean this please if it happens?
If you don't know, why would you say so?
Won't you get your story straight.
If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?
And I need this now more than I ever did.
If you don't well, honey, then you don't.
I left you waiting, at the least could we be friends?
Should have never started, ain't that the way it always ends?
On my life I'll try today, there's so much I've felt I should say, but.
Even if your heart would listen, doubt I could explain.
If you don't don't know, why'd you say so?
Would you mean this please if it happens?
If you don't know, why would you say so?
Won't you get your story straight.
If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?
Cause I need this now more than I ever did.
If you don't well, honey, then you don't.
So here we are now, a sip of wine a sip of water.
Someday maybe, maybe someday we'll be smarter.
And I'm sorry that I'm such a mess, I drank all my money could get and,
took everything you let me have and then I never loved you back.
If you don't don't know, why would you say so?
Would you mean the please if it happens?
If you don't know, why would you say so?
Won't you get your story straight?
If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?
Cause I need this now yeah need this, need this.
If you don't well, honey, then you don't
And if you don't well, honey, then you don't
If you don't know, honey, honey, then you don't.
#Yeah the youtube thing ain't working that well, it's playing the song at least.
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