first week back.
First week of Term 2 is at an end. What a week. What surprised me most about this week was that it wasn't as bad as it could be. I mean the past could've leapt out and completely been a bitch to me. But it didn't happen, I guess moving on in life is the best option.
I came into the week all confident with Methods too. My tutor has really been a help surprisingly. Then of course there was Mr Kermond who just had to screw it all up. :/
His whole lecture about nearly crying because of the logs test results. At that moment all that motivation I had built up just disappeared. I guess the test was before that whole motivation build up, so I've still got hope for the next SAC. It's time to step up. I guess what Kermond said about repeating Methods next year will be completely pointless makes sense. With all that added pressure from all my other subjects, this really is my only chance to get Methods done right.
Besides my attitude towards school recently I've noticed something weird this week. Do you ever get that feeling like you are changing? Like the person you are now, is somewhat foreign to you. I don't know if I'm really making any sense but for some reason I feel so different. I guess all the shit that went down over the last month or so had something to do about it. It hasn't even entirely gone away yet. And that worries me. I mean I'm pissed off at myself! Which as I've been told previously is not how I should be feeling. But like really, should I really blame opposite parties. Isn't that what everyone finds so easy to do. When shit happens, always lay the blame on other people. But when I properly think about it, it wasn't anyone else. It was me doing what I do best. Although I can't lie, that anger underneath at you will always be there. I did some stupid things, but so did you. I guess that's what will always happen, some endless circle of blame, and in the end nothing gets fixed anyway. Fuck I wish that things would change.
first week back.
First week of Term 2 is at an end. What a week. What surprised me most about this week was that it wasn't as bad as it could be. I mean the past could've leapt out and completely been a bitch to me. But it didn't happen, I guess moving on in life is the best option.
I came into the week all confident with Methods too. My tutor has really been a help surprisingly. Then of course there was Mr Kermond who just had to screw it all up. :/
His whole lecture about nearly crying because of the logs test results. At that moment all that motivation I had built up just disappeared. I guess the test was before that whole motivation build up, so I've still got hope for the next SAC. It's time to step up. I guess what Kermond said about repeating Methods next year will be completely pointless makes sense. With all that added pressure from all my other subjects, this really is my only chance to get Methods done right.
Besides my attitude towards school recently I've noticed something weird this week. Do you ever get that feeling like you are changing? Like the person you are now, is somewhat foreign to you. I don't know if I'm really making any sense but for some reason I feel so different. I guess all the shit that went down over the last month or so had something to do about it. It hasn't even entirely gone away yet. And that worries me. I mean I'm pissed off at myself! Which as I've been told previously is not how I should be feeling. But like really, should I really blame opposite parties. Isn't that what everyone finds so easy to do. When shit happens, always lay the blame on other people. But when I properly think about it, it wasn't anyone else. It was me doing what I do best. Although I can't lie, that anger underneath at you will always be there. I did some stupid things, but so did you. I guess that's what will always happen, some endless circle of blame, and in the end nothing gets fixed anyway. Fuck I wish that things would change.
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Name's Damien, music is the game. Don't know where I'd be without it.
Mucked around with some themes coz I was bored.
Here's my negative release on the world.
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Muse..
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Anything that isn't bullshit pop
Wants
Musicman Stingray bass
Ferrari 599
Maxda rx7 fortune by veilside
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most bullshit mainstream music
annoying girls who like playing with guys
most people
networks