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Thursday, January 13, 2011, 4:38 PM | back to the top.
So like.. I tried it. I've had people telling me for a while to try. So I decided to try it. It was slightly how I expected it to be. The sudden kick of happiness was nice, I'll admit that. But after a while I just got sick of it. Why? Because it was so bloody misleading. I don't see why so many people like it. In the long run it'll just ruin you at some point I think.

What was it I tried? Weed? Cocaine?

Well it was optimism. I tried being optimistic. For those who know me you'll understand that I'm fairly pessimistic. But just for a laugh I suppose I tried being optimistic. And in the end it was exactly what I expected it to be.

Firstly I'll like to let you people know I wasn't always, "Oh this world sucks", "Oh i cbf doing that", "OMG i hate life". Those who knew me before last year would know that at one point I was a fairly happy person. I wouldn't say that I always looked at the bright side. But I was less pessimistic for sure. So I know what it's like. Of course then there was last year. I guess there were a few events I just wasn't prepared to handle.

Anyways, so I tried being optimistic. Like I said at first you feel great. You feel as if you have this deep power inside you can use to tackle anything. As stupid as that sounds.

But I came to a realisation. You can have as much self belief as possible within yourself as you want. But in the end if it's just not meant to be, or happen it just won't. Say you are extremely stupid, and just pass year 10 just a whisker. You can have as much self belief as possible that you'll get a 99 as your ATAR. But in the end you just can't. You don't have that ability.

Does that make any sense? You can believe as much as you want in something or someone as you want. But the amount of control you have in some cases is mostly minimal.

Now I do admit to something here. I am wrong to a degree. Obviously self belief can get you far. But in some cases it just can't. Especially when it has to do with people. Because you can't control things like that. I guess you can influence to a point. But significantly is unrealistic.

Essentially being optimistic about everything has its strong points. However too much, or rather it being focused in particular areas can just set yourself up for disappointment.

I do so hope I'm wrong. In fact I probably am. But oh well that's my "realistic" views on society. Call it pessimism if you must. I'd rather that than living a lie.

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